Ghost Girl

Ghost Girl.

I'm a shadow. I'm a shell. I'm an outline of something I once knew.

I'm just a representation.

I hide myself. I hide myself.

In smoke. In mirrors.

I am lost. I am tangled. I am tangible.

I want to feel lighter than air and thinner than life.

A little bit of sinew on a little bit of bone.

An alcoholic anorexic. Anything for a constant haze.

A bleary mind so I can keep remembering to forget.

What I was, what I housed.

A small dependent child who wanted out

but couldn't stay to play.

Get it over with, rip it out and destroy it.

I'l hardly feel a thing.

As I sink farther inward until all is gone completely. 

(Just a little bit of mass, I've found, works better in this world.)

2003