suffocation

You BASTARD!

It HURTS! It hurts so bad!

And I can't breathe and I'm restricted 

And I'm crying and I'm dying

You've ditched me. You've betrayed me.

You've denied me

And yet I cry for you?

I HURT! I hurt for you!

The sound of the pain pounding through me 

will forever be my last memory of you.

What a way to leave. To sever. To Part.

It's so LOUD in me! I cant cry out.

And for why? For what?

The hardest saddest part is realizing

you were not the soul I thought you were.

Not even a little bit.

Who the hell were you and how did I let

so much of you in and never know 

how superficial it was?

I can't BREATHE!

I can't BREATHE!

So much I want to say 

but you took away my eloquence 

and replaced it with a beer bottle.

2003