yours, xoxo

i'm trying to amputate your

existence from my heavy heart

i move forward i move sideways

i side step you i move on

but i feel i still belong to you

i touch and am touched

i laugh i create

but i feel it spread to my sinew

to my marrow feel it seeping

i feel i still belong to you

hands don't make sense on my skin

words don't sound right to my ear

you don't haunt me anymore

because i'm good at supressing

at pretending to forget

but i feel i'm cheating you 

when someone else is in the home we once shared

i feel it's still your bed 

and i feel i still belong to you

2003