mud

i am contemplating letting myself go

to slowly and self indulgently

die of my broken heart in me,

the center of my human form,

could be my cause of death.

i can slowly fade away and 

black will spread across my vision

and since i can't eat i'll let my body feed off 

whatever fat is left until i am nothing more

than ribs and knuckles

my hair will fall out and breathing 

will be my only form of exercise 

as i lay down to die on my chosen

couch or floor.

please don't distract me...

i am laying down to die.

2004