sonnet

you overwhelm me and it scares me

scares me because now i can't imagine being without 

i didn't expect to love and be loved in return

(it's the greatest thing i'll ever learn)

and i feel this loves heavy blanket tucked all around

i can't get out

i can only take breaths of you

but i don't want to pull back the covers

i'm not immune to anything else 

i could possibly catch, 

could be offered by this world

that doesn't contain a spark of you

i am here

i've been caught 

i've been scared

and here i remain

having waited a lifetime for you,

for this

and now forgetting how to be without

dying slowly, beautifully,

drowning in a sea of wine and roses

2002